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In the past a whole series of counterimpressions would have occurred. Your love and concern would not have been so apparent, you would have become dejected as a result of his condition, he would have interpreted that as disapproval and rejection, and a good week’s time might have been spent under the same conditions, so you have improved.

I want Ruburt to discuss those feelings with you also of yesterday. He thinks, simply because he knows them and disapproves of them, that thinking alone removes them.

Your visit to class (Tuesday, December 14) meant much to Ruburt, and to the other students. By your complete absence, you see, you also led them to suspect that you disapproved, for they knew that in your other activities psychically you worked together. It was a symbolic gesture then of importance. You also did not attend until the Sumari development.

The phrase, “giving into your appetites,” is important here. It is one of the reasons for example why he does not like to eat, generally, in front of others. It is a moral principle to him, but also applies privately. It involves not being fleshy in voluptuous terms, a kind of esthetic discipline that morally disapproves of others. The sexual connotations are obvious, and added on. When he did not feel loved he would not eat—the two appetites, you see.

He does have, as you do, buried sensuous tastes that can be cultivated: his buried far more than yours. Your combined emotional feelings toward food have been exaggerated by him. He thinks you disapprove for example of the very foods you tell him to eat, the sugars and starches. You condemn them except when mentioning them to him.