“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now. It is the putting off of satisfactions that you want, always into the future. If you really do not care about the satisfactions they do not matter. If you constantly want them without making any conscious effort, then that involves a constant sense of stress.

He felt finally that at least if you worked full time for yourself that (underlined) complaint would be taken care of. He considered it a practical move in the physical universe, one of the few actual changes that either of you had decided to make in all that time.

You particularly felt threatened. It would be foolish to the extreme to stay here when you are both consciously and unconsciously waiting for the bridge to be built. You felt your territory threatened as soon as the parking lot was thought of, and earlier when Spaziani first thought of selling the place.

Then he becomes angry when you say “Why don’t you make a decision?” He felt you were afraid to, and if he made one and it was wrong, he did not want to take the blame. So he felt in an impossible situation: and quite consciously, when he allowed himself to become aware of his thoughts. He is afraid of hurting you, of making you move, or making you cry.

It is composed of a conglomeration of quite conscious but unexamined, or rather unassembled, beliefs about yourselves, some quite contradictory, and your “place” in the world.