“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now the affair with Venice’s friend involved the false prophet idea again. It seemed to Ruburt, with his understanding, that if his information was coming from a paranormal source, and that source was good, then it must also prove itself to be infallible, or he was a false prophet. He also felt accused by you, believing that if he was using his abilities really fully, as you wanted him to, then there would have been a way provided so the woman would not die.

At the same time he was feeling that he would not be a great writer either, you were telling him he was using only about a tenth of his abilities, and so in both areas he was not living up to his expectations or yours, to his way of seeing. There are other old tie-ins here, in that he was always considered very good or very bad, in that people always liked him instantly or disliked him instantly. You could not ignore him. But the contrasts were always stressed in early life, so that if you were not the one you were the other.

Some important blockages would therefore come when he tried to tell himself he could do something, such as walk downstairs correctly, when at the same time he did not believe it possible. This was in my suggestions I emphasized the ends rather than the means. It is also why I want the session read so often, assuring him as it does that even in his present physical condition alone he can perform with much better flexibility—

I did have some interesting comments to make concerning your visit, but it can wait if you would like to retire early.

In the back of their minds they are suspicious that had you continued you would have beaten them, and now they can never know differently. They cannot understand, either of them, how you could leave your job, their own sense of worth is so bound in possessions. They are deeply insecure, but good men. For you to leave your job and have a new car is doubly mysterious. They respect you, for that matter, in a quite mysterious way to them, that they do not understand.

To a lesser extent the same applies to Ruburt and the sister-in-laws. A woman choosing to have no children is not a woman they can understand, yet each wonders what other abilities of their own they might have nourished, or what they would have been. For Ruburt to make money, to become known, puts this same kind of burden upon them, you see, of understanding.