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DELETED SESSION

(In a recent deleted session, Seth told us that Jane’s symptoms deepened after she held a session for a friend of Venice McCullough’s a few years ago. The friend committed suicide, and Jane regarded the session as a failure. My question simply wanted to explore the relationship between the onset of symptoms before the psychic work, and the fact that a psychic “failure” had the ability to deepen them. While I could make intuitive guesses as to connections here, I preferred to hear what Seth had to say.

(In our talk before the session, I had the feeling that Jane kept sliding away from the direct consideration of the question. She often went into detail concerning the suspected session, without saying anything about the fact that a psychic experience could make worse symptoms that had begun before the psychic work, per se, had become conscious knowledge to us.

(Once again we sat for the session before 9 PM, and once again it was slow in coming about. Even though Jane told me she felt Seth around at 9 PM. At 9:20, she told me about the “shuddering” feeling she’d experienced in her chest in Rochester, after I had first mentioned the above question to her. Jane said that when I brought up the question again tonight she felt the shuddering return, although it was located farther down her torso, in the stomach area, this time. At 9:25, though, just before the session began, she said the feeling was better.)

I want Ruburt to read his last session daily (of August 2, 1972). He has not done so. He has made an attempt however to follow the suggestions, and this has given him some pointers about his subjective state of mind. Some improvements have indeed shown themselves. But the entire session is important, and each of the suggestions is geared for him.

Give us a moment. Again, the session to be read daily for a while. It is very important that when he feels caught in a dilemma—to move because he wants something, or not to move because he thinks it will hurt—that he not prolong the dilemma, but move despite his mood at the time.

I am afraid I am holding him to the line with that particular session If he wants my help, therefore, he can no longer avoid following my advice—and tell him that I know he has been, but he must do so more completely, with that session.

The whole class knew of the session. He was disappointed in me, also, thinking that I should have been able to save the woman. At the same time he resented being put in the position to begin with. His mother had attempted suicide several times. On a deeply unconscious level he worried that perhaps symbolically he did not want to save the woman—who was, incidentally a mother. He felt responsible for his own mother’s suicide attempts, to some degree, and this added to the situation.

He was giving a good deal of time to our sessions. The woman’s session, to him, was to some degree a test of the material’s practical worth to someone in deep trouble. The woman’s death obviously meant that it did not pass. Again, he forgot the integrity of the personality. It must make its own choices, and may accept or refuse help given. The woman did not want the session, and had made a decision she did not intend to change. Venice’s will or anyone else’s could not stand against that.

In the picture of reality he has been accepting, for the reasons given in past sessions, he did not believe he could move capably. As matters progressed he did not believe it was possible for him to perform physically in a normal manner. You must act in accordance with your idea of reality. You cannot do something unreal.

Some important blockages would therefore come when he tried to tell himself he could do something, such as walk downstairs correctly, when at the same time he did not believe it possible. This was in my suggestions I emphasized the ends rather than the means. It is also why I want the session read so often, assuring him as it does that even in his present physical condition alone he can perform with much better flexibility—

—than he previously believed. If the suggestions in the session are followed, they will alter his picture of his own reality, and through action. Naturally the session must be followed and not just read, from the sketching or painting suggestions right on. If that session is followed faithfully for two months, you will see some nearly spectacular changes.

Now. The session contains more than is apparent, and there are developments that can arise from it as a direct result of concentration being directed elsewhere, a release of energy seeking new outlets in other words.

Try to adjust your own attitude as you hope Ruburt will adjust his. Encourage him therefore to follow the session, and assure him that you believe he can follow it. Do not tell him ahead of time that he will not succeed. Do you follow me?

These feelings, this extra vitality, enriches then paintings that you did in the past earlier. These feelings were picked up by the people who have been buying your paintings of late, and the same feelings will radiate outward, you see, wherever the paintings may be. As the session is followed Ruburt’s joy will be liberated through the body in the same way. Do you follow me?

(10:56. After the session I told Jane I thought Seth didn’t finish dealing with the question I’d outlined before the session. As Jane herself had done in discussing it, Seth spent much time exploring the second part of the question, relating to Venice’s friend, while not saying anything about the onset of symptoms before the psychic abilities showed themselves.)