“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

At the same time he was feeling that he would not be a great writer either, you were telling him he was using only about a tenth of his abilities, and so in both areas he was not living up to his expectations or yours, to his way of seeing. There are other old tie-ins here, in that he was always considered very good or very bad, in that people always liked him instantly or disliked him instantly. You could not ignore him. But the contrasts were always stressed in early life, so that if you were not the one you were the other.

(This is excellent material, well worth remembering. I want to keep it in mind especially re paintings and sales, of course. It’s still working as I type this, on a class night; one of Jane’s students bought another portrait. This one I’d finished but a couple of months ago. I didn’t expect this sale. Even as I write this paragraph, another student asked the price on a still life I painted a couple of years ago....)

Then give us a moment... To some extent, in certain terms, you have upset both of your brothers, and your younger brother’s comments concerning money were directly related to two events in your life.

If you do well financially, then your well-doing puts a burden upon them, to understand the validity of your kind of life, and Ruburt’s. This makes them question in ways that make them uncomfortable. Yet you do what you do for them, also. For certain portions of their personalities, under different circumstances, tempered differently, have leanings in those directions. But the core of their being does not.