“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I want Ruburt to read his last session daily (of August 2, 1972). He has not done so. He has made an attempt however to follow the suggestions, and this has given him some pointers about his subjective state of mind. Some improvements have indeed shown themselves. But the entire session is important, and each of the suggestions is geared for him.

He did not tell you the many times he used my suggestions with good results in Rochester, simply because when he had the time to talk to you other matters had arisen, and he forgot some of the instances.

On one occasion he did almost come very close to the feeling of freedom necessary, but all the suggestions need to be followed, not simply the ones he happens to remember at any given time. The suggestions are given in such a way that one makes the other easier to follow. They work as a group therefore also.

Give us a moment. Again, the session to be read daily for a while. It is very important that when he feels caught in a dilemma—to move because he wants something, or not to move because he thinks it will hurt—that he not prolong the dilemma, but move despite his mood at the time.

His idea of trying to help others was a good one. This involved physical motion in Rochester. He will tell you. I will have something to say regarding the affair you mentioned, but give us a few moments on that.

I am afraid I am holding him to the line with that particular session If he wants my help, therefore, he can no longer avoid following my advice—and tell him that I know he has been, but he must do so more completely, with that session.

Now the affair with Venice’s friend involved the false prophet idea again. It seemed to Ruburt, with his understanding, that if his information was coming from a paranormal source, and that source was good, then it must also prove itself to be infallible, or he was a false prophet. He also felt accused by you, believing that if he was using his abilities really fully, as you wanted him to, then there would have been a way provided so the woman would not die.

He felt that the burden rested upon him, which of course was hardly the case. He also felt that Venice needed the proof of that woman’s complete recovery, and felt that perhaps his own doubts or fears prevented delivery of the particular information that might make the woman decide to live.

The whole class knew of the session. He was disappointed in me, also, thinking that I should have been able to save the woman. At the same time he resented being put in the position to begin with. His mother had attempted suicide several times. On a deeply unconscious level he worried that perhaps symbolically he did not want to save the woman—who was, incidentally a mother. He felt responsible for his own mother’s suicide attempts, to some degree, and this added to the situation.

He felt he let you down also, you see. He had hoped to be a great psychic, in his terms, about then. But a great psychic, you see, should have been able to raise the dead and save the living. He completely forgot that personalities have their own choices to make. He had also been reading about the great percentage of successes with faith healers, for example, and he considered this a personal failure of an important magnitude.

At the same time he was feeling that he would not be a great writer either, you were telling him he was using only about a tenth of his abilities, and so in both areas he was not living up to his expectations or yours, to his way of seeing. There are other old tie-ins here, in that he was always considered very good or very bad, in that people always liked him instantly or disliked him instantly. You could not ignore him. But the contrasts were always stressed in early life, so that if you were not the one you were the other.

He was giving a good deal of time to our sessions. The woman’s session, to him, was to some degree a test of the material’s practical worth to someone in deep trouble. The woman’s death obviously meant that it did not pass. Again, he forgot the integrity of the personality. It must make its own choices, and may accept or refuse help given. The woman did not want the session, and had made a decision she did not intend to change. Venice’s will or anyone else’s could not stand against that.

Now, I have been following your discussion, and to some good degree you are correct. Ruburt has allowed himself to become hypnotized by certain images and ideas, that he considered true.

In the picture of reality he has been accepting, for the reasons given in past sessions, he did not believe he could move capably. As matters progressed he did not believe it was possible for him to perform physically in a normal manner. You must act in accordance with your idea of reality. You cannot do something unreal.

Some important blockages would therefore come when he tried to tell himself he could do something, such as walk downstairs correctly, when at the same time he did not believe it possible. This was in my suggestions I emphasized the ends rather than the means. It is also why I want the session read so often, assuring him as it does that even in his present physical condition alone he can perform with much better flexibility—

(“Yes, except that he doesn’t believe it.”)

—than he previously believed. If the suggestions in the session are followed, they will alter his picture of his own reality, and through action. Naturally the session must be followed and not just read, from the sketching or painting suggestions right on. If that session is followed faithfully for two months, you will see some nearly spectacular changes.

Try to adjust your own attitude as you hope Ruburt will adjust his. Encourage him therefore to follow the session, and assure him that you believe he can follow it. Do not tell him ahead of time that he will not succeed. Do you follow me?

(While taking a drive to the drugstore on Sunday, my brother Dick told me he felt he “didn’t have much” as far as money was concerned. He was quite incensed over published reports that 10% of the population in this country controls something like 58% of the wealth, etc. He talked about owning more land, farms, etc., and that what he has, with his wife, represents a compromise as far as acreage, the house, commuting distance, etc., is concerned. To Jane and me, he is very well off indeed.)