“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I want Ruburt to read his last session daily (of August 2, 1972). He has not done so. He has made an attempt however to follow the suggestions, and this has given him some pointers about his subjective state of mind. Some improvements have indeed shown themselves. But the entire session is important, and each of the suggestions is geared for him.

On one occasion he did almost come very close to the feeling of freedom necessary, but all the suggestions need to be followed, not simply the ones he happens to remember at any given time. The suggestions are given in such a way that one makes the other easier to follow. They work as a group therefore also.

Give us a moment. Again, the session to be read daily for a while. It is very important that when he feels caught in a dilemma—to move because he wants something, or not to move because he thinks it will hurt—that he not prolong the dilemma, but move despite his mood at the time.

His idea of trying to help others was a good one. This involved physical motion in Rochester. He will tell you. I will have something to say regarding the affair you mentioned, but give us a few moments on that.

I am afraid I am holding him to the line with that particular session If he wants my help, therefore, he can no longer avoid following my advice—and tell him that I know he has been, but he must do so more completely, with that session.

He felt he let you down also, you see. He had hoped to be a great psychic, in his terms, about then. But a great psychic, you see, should have been able to raise the dead and save the living. He completely forgot that personalities have their own choices to make. He had also been reading about the great percentage of successes with faith healers, for example, and he considered this a personal failure of an important magnitude.

At the same time he was feeling that he would not be a great writer either, you were telling him he was using only about a tenth of his abilities, and so in both areas he was not living up to his expectations or yours, to his way of seeing. There are other old tie-ins here, in that he was always considered very good or very bad, in that people always liked him instantly or disliked him instantly. You could not ignore him. But the contrasts were always stressed in early life, so that if you were not the one you were the other.

Now. Thoughts have their own energy. Your thoughts and everyone else’s. Your own greater awareness now, with Ruburt, to him represents the first real break in your armor. It will also serve to release feelings of joy that you have inhibited. These feelings are released not only in paintings that you are working on, say, now, but on paintings that were completed earlier. Your emotional reality permeates everything with which you come in contact—across the board, regardless of the time element.

(This is excellent material, well worth remembering. I want to keep it in mind especially re paintings and sales, of course. It’s still working as I type this, on a class night; one of Jane’s students bought another portrait. This one I’d finished but a couple of months ago. I didn’t expect this sale. Even as I write this paragraph, another student asked the price on a still life I painted a couple of years ago....)

You are quite correct, that conscious involvement is necessary on Ruburt’s part. But then the released energy can act on the images in the same way that the feelings acted on the paintings.

The feelings or emotions automatically reach out, therefore, altering all objects within your reality, but from the particular focus point of its emergence. In Ruburt’s case the body, where the lack of joy showed, and in your case in the paintings, where the greater expressiveness will now add—and has—its own vitality.

I did have some interesting comments to make concerning your visit, but it can wait if you would like to retire early.

(This is all news to Jane and me. Of course I left the job at Artistic last February, but didn’t tell Loren and Betts this officially until phone conversations after the June flood. Jane and I bought the car after the flood also.)

First of all, because you are the eldest, and because of your father’s position, because you were making good money as a young man, Loren braced himself against your situation at that time. You were the one starting out making money. Both of them wanted to beat you at the game, simply because you were the eldest, but as they began you gave it up.

In the back of their minds they are suspicious that had you continued you would have beaten them, and now they can never know differently. They cannot understand, either of them, how you could leave your job, their own sense of worth is so bound in possessions. They are deeply insecure, but good men. For you to leave your job and have a new car is doubly mysterious. They respect you, for that matter, in a quite mysterious way to them, that they do not understand.

If you do well financially, then your well-doing puts a burden upon them, to understand the validity of your kind of life, and Ruburt’s. This makes them question in ways that make them uncomfortable. Yet you do what you do for them, also. For certain portions of their personalities, under different circumstances, tempered differently, have leanings in those directions. But the core of their being does not.

The two of you represent the loners, of course, who strike out for themselves. There is much more here, but I suggest that we wait. You can have the information whenever you want it, or request it. There are connections with the children, where you serve as counterpoints.