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Ruburt felt that you did not trust his relationship with Tam as far as the spontaneous handling of business was concerned, and that perhaps the dissatisfaction you expressed about Prentice had to do with a certain emotional sloppiness, where both he and Tam did not have the proper regard for detail, and lacked a kind of integrity that you valued.

Both of you at times do. In your particular personal relationship Ruburt began to feel that when you looked at him you were comparing him precisely with “that perfect physical self” that seemingly so eluded him, and in the face of that image, any improvement at all began to seem so insignificant as to be meaningless.

They were discarded as falsehoods. Regardless of your love, when you looked at him he often saw disapproval. By then this place (Apartment 4) represented isolation and retreat from your relationship’s fulfillment in line with what it had meant earlier, and his decision to come out with you again (into Apartment 5).