“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In the meantime—now, another string—he felt the need again to come closer to you, and you ended up eating over there (Apartment 5). He had decided because of your more frequent demonstrations of love that he must try again for the emotional rapport with you that was so important.

Now: This is not as rambling as it may seem. I take it for granted that you understand the jumps in time. This was merely to remind you of certain continuities without going over events already mentioned—so going back to the point in time mentioned earlier in tonight’s session: when Dialogues was finished Ruburt tried it out on Prentice, and felt briefly that Tam might take it. Even then there was talk from a time earlier about a paperback deal. This had excited Ruburt, as had the Dialogues possibility. Both fell through.

The morning episodes are directly related to the fact lately that he grew to doubt his ability to recover, and face each morning the prospect of a day in which he tried to hide those feelings from himself and from you. The hallway between the bedroom and the bath became, symbolically, the hallway to physical activity through which he was afraid he could not pass, and through whose portals he must go alone, since he did not want to burden you with his despondency over it.