“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt is motivated quite simply and powerfully by his love for you and his work. Since he has known you these have been the two main directions out of which his being flows. Take into consideration the information given in our last session.

Both of you were sure of your love, but each of you at various times were quite willing to let its personal aspects take second place, and I am not speaking alone of physical love-making. When Ruburt took this place (Apartment 4) he was about ready to say, “All right, we will be work partners.” Then you responded with the display of love and devotion, plus a definite program, embarked upon together.

In the meantime—now, another string—he felt the need again to come closer to you, and you ended up eating over there (Apartment 5). He had decided because of your more frequent demonstrations of love that he must try again for the emotional rapport with you that was so important.

This immediately brought certain aspects to light that had been hidden to some extent while you were more physically separated. Some of this has to do, again, with the fact that you thought your concern automatically expressed your love. You were together more. When you saw him try to get up he knew you loved him, but the frown was what he saw. He was always trying to hide from you. Part of it was his projection because he felt you thought he was so stupid for having anything wrong at all, so the more he saw you frown the stupider he felt, and the more guilty. And the more he tried to hide his condition.

They were discarded as falsehoods. Regardless of your love, when you looked at him he often saw disapproval. By then this place (Apartment 4) represented isolation and retreat from your relationship’s fulfillment in line with what it had meant earlier, and his decision to come out with you again (into Apartment 5).

Often he has inhibited physical feelings of love for you, for reasons given, but the other night he did not. You obvious love of him came through strongly, and rearroused him.

It was not that he didn’t accept the responsibility so much as that, in that weakest area, he did not realize the strength of his own conscious thoughts to alter the body mechanism. You can help him most by lovingly reminding him of that.