“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He was so direct emotionally that he idealized what he thought of as your relative detachment. This of course is old. At one time he felt his emotional spontaneity was indeed admired by you and encouraged, and he blossomed. Then he felt it threatened you—that it would form a barrier between you. He felt that you thought he wanted more than you could give—or wanted to give, practically speaking.

Everything he does is literal and symbolic at the same time. He became relaxed and psychedelic one day fairly recently when he washed windows and you made a remark to the effect that you would not like to be at the mercy of such things. Do you follow me?

At the same time he thinks of the two of you together. Anything you do as partners excites him. Any time you initiate a program to help him he is excited. When you do not continue it he is afraid that you are not willing to take the consequences, while you interpret the discontinuation to mean he does not want to improve.

The information is all available but you are physically hampered in time, so I will clear up any points later and amplify. Because you are not in his position you are presently able to help him when he falters, to help him help himself. And you help—consistently—in a consistent program itself assures him that you do want him to be himself.

The reasons why Ruburt improved to a large degree the summer you took this place (Apartment 4) were important. You worked together. You utilized suggestion together. You began the morning together, using suggestions consciously decided upon. You had a plan and you followed it. Besides, you took what were at times timely measures in physical terms—direct terms—to better your environment. (Moving into Apartment 4.)

There will be questions you have then that are not answered this evening. In the meantime follow the few suggestions given, and in whatever way you can, express your own spontaneous feelings toward Ruburt.... On his part, he must make an effort to rise above the reinforced feelings of despair, and to assure himself that his body can perform adequately with time, and following these suggestions.

The reasons for the intensified difficulty for the past two months are not as important this evening as the material I am giving you. Some traces have to be made in the material delivered, and “timely” reasons are still connected to these patterns.