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He believed that emotional freedom would be construed as chaos, that while you said be spontaneous, you meant “Be spontaneous when it is convenient.” Beside the personality differences, however, work was also involved. Spontaneous love-making for example would cut into the work schedule that both of you had evolved.

All of this is old, yet the patterns began strongly then. He felt that his obvious femininity was almost a threat to both of your works, that he had no right to look sexy and tempt you both when spontaneous love play, for example, would not occur. He remembers you telling him not to kiss you or be sexually provocative unless he meant it.

If you both continue these sessions will continue. (?) If you let the personal sessions go then there are reasons why you each let them go. Again, it is because of the strength of your particular alliance, yours and Ruburt’s, that your reactions to each other are so charged and interbound. There is only so much I can give you in an evening, but I have much in mind.

In a way both interpretations are correct, though because of his position he is more apt to project negatives on you. Rest your hand.

Strangely enough, in encouraging his spontaneity you are encouraging your own, because often he acts for both of you. It is futile to say that life should not involve challenges. You have accepted them. They are accepted to be solved. You are seeing what happens when spontaneity becomes hampered through beliefs, and in your early life you believed you must hamper it in yourself. You are seeing what happened to your brothers. You are seeing what happened to your father.

Suggestions can change beliefs, for beliefs are only accepted habitual suggestions. When you use so-called positive suggestions you must implement them through action, but gently. You have each been structuring your experience largely through Ruburt’s symptoms—both of you, so that when Ruburt might momentarily feel free you would remind him of his limitations, and when you might forget them Ruburt would remind you.

Both of you concentrate upon the symptoms and Ruburt’s dire circumstances, which reinforces them. If you do this without feeling the symptoms, then at least understand how Ruburt so easily does the same thing.

1. For both of you, you must turn your concentration into other areas; and this applies to you for you are a part of it, as much as to Ruburt. I will give you directions to facilitate.

2. A definite approach that I will initiate, for you both to follow. You are in your own reality. You have chosen this one, even as Ruburt has. An ill wife in not inflicted upon you.

Now. I want Ruburt to keep a pendulum by the bed. In the morning suggestions given with the pendulum, and both of you participating. He is not to feel ashamed of his body in your eyes, regardless of its condition. Again, in one night I can only give you so much, but he grew afraid, and you helped him today to combat that fear: He was frightened that the body could not change, and your belief that it could was of great help.

(Both of us were bleary. “I’m afraid we’ll have to wait.”)

Then my heartiest regards to you both, and a fond good evening.