“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Break at 10:09. Jane was well dissociated, she said. I read a few paragraphs from the first part of the session to her, since I thought them very important. The material led me to suggest some alternatives to our present routine and attitudes; Jane said the suggestions, which were only speculative at this stage, frightened her, but I did not intend this of course. I was only floundering around trying to find ways of relieving the symptoms, even if this meant suspending ESP classes, or the sessions, or whatever, while we tackled the problems at hand.

His attitude is changing, and has been, and with your help it can change for the better. Any fear is not of the session. While it is not now specifically related to particular past events, it is still related to past training where he was led to believe that he must keep a tight rein upon himself; not go ahead full blast, and restrain the spontaneous parts of the personality, unless they showed themselves in “acceptable” fashion.

Poetry was acceptable. In other areas he feared that the spontaneous self could lead to childbirth. In the psychic area he was afraid it could lead to falsehood, much more for example than he feared anything like schizophrenia. With you, for a while, he felt the spontaneous self brought you only trouble—as per the Florida trip and so forth, and that he had better learn to control it.

The symptoms were the result of strain, then. While they still allowed him to pursue those activities in which he was interested, the conscientious nature, the questioning mind that led him to investigate psychic realities, and that led him to learn so much, did not change overnight. They were of much too long standing.

(“When The Seth Material was published and we went on tour: did this revive or intensify his fears about leading people astray?”)

The material represented a body of teaching, which was at variance not only with his own childhood religious background, but to some extent with the intellectual ideas of early adulthood. He made the jump to publish the teachings, to that extent, so far.

Then he realized that the coverage given on your tour, the people being reached, and so then again he wondered. He was also using his writing ability, or putting his writing ability at the hand of the material. Then again it had better be legitimate, since it was obvious he was being interviewed as a psychic who wrote, rather than as a writer with psychic abilities.

He did not like the Washington show at all, or the circumstances, and was upset by that. (The second trip.

The initial response was the strongest one of course because it was his first experience along those lines. Also he has grown to know himself more since then.

Now. I will not keep you. Your own statement of course was quite true, as to the concentration on negative aspects (since supper time), but both of your attitudes have definitely improved.

Understanding this however will let Ruburt take some countering measures, as he did today by thinking of how cozy it was inside to work, and how comforting the rain sounded.

(“It was very instructive. Thank you very much, Seth. Good night.”)

(11:28. Jane’s trance was again good. She said Seth was very affectionate tonight—that it was one of those nights, etc.)