“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now this shows him that he can act resolutely in the physical world, that he can express himself through his body, that he can be physically assertive. It combats the lack of confidence that had built up.

Besides this he felt highly inadequate because he knew that all the time your mother of course would have preferred two minutes with you to ten with him, so then he felt unappreciated. You had a menagerie of repressed feelings. This is just one instance.

In his own way he is fond of your mother at the same time, you see, but also terrified of her because the repressions cause him to exaggerate the hidden fears. When you are frightened of fears then the most minute one is exaggerated.

When his mind is engrossed as a rule the blockage is far less unless he suddenly remembers and thinks “Oh, now I will have difficulty getting up.” Giving into the impulses (to motion) then will automatically work, and give him confidence that the impulses can indeed be followed through.

They are surface contradictions, not worth exploring. In the summer for example with all the windows open, the closed door would not bother him as much. The mattress bothers him on occasion.

There are some connections here with his mother being in bed and in pain, that frighten him. And negative images, deeply repressed, of her sitting on the edge of the bed, trying to get up. He automatically projects distaste into your eyes at the spectacle, and is humiliated when you see him trying to get up. That is why he often waits until you are in the other room. This gives him a first defeat for the day, you see, and early. I will give you more at the end of our next session. (Humorously:) Have you had enough for tonight?