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The exaggeration of negative influences was brought about because of the repression. Now, for example: so as not to bother you, Ruburt made it a point of conscience to speak to your mother on the phone for you, and not call you, when he did not want to do so. Very seldom was he even aware of his true feelings here, and when he was he was ashamed of them, and was 10 times nicer to your mother to cover up the feelings from all of you.

To some large degree. Expectation now (underlined) is important here, and the fact that he got into the habit of denying impulses toward motion—by blocking, often, not the impulse so much as the motor response.

Now. There are several issues involved here, and we will not get to all of them this evening, but I will return to the subject at the end of dictation.

Give us time here. Changing the direction of the bed would automatically help matters some, but (humorously) Ruburt does not like it the other way.

Now. (Long pause.) Some of the motor response blockage is continued in sleep. (Long pause.) Feeling sore for so long has built up the feeling of awakening in the morning in the same way. Countering gentle, imaginative exercises would help here, not involving getting up per se, however; to see himself dressed and in excellent spirits, serving your breakfast for example—not necessarily the following morning, but simply to entertain the pleasant image.

There are some connections here with his mother being in bed and in pain, that frighten him. And negative images, deeply repressed, of her sitting on the edge of the bed, trying to get up. He automatically projects distaste into your eyes at the spectacle, and is humiliated when you see him trying to get up. That is why he often waits until you are in the other room. This gives him a first defeat for the day, you see, and early. I will give you more at the end of our next session. (Humorously:) Have you had enough for tonight?

I will take that up with this idea of motion and response. I cannot answer it for you in five minutes. But I will tell you that expectation is highly pertinent here on both of your parts.... Now I bid you a fond good evening, and I will go into the weight problem rather thoroughly, after dictation.