“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

As I will tell you, these goals have strong connections in past lives, and in this life you each gave yourselves powerful psychological charges to insure that these goals would be followed through. You chose parental circumstances therefore that would presuppose you toward those directions that you had already decided upon.

You both felt that the most innocent of caresses could destroy the foundation of your lives. This was certainly overcompensation. It tended for a while to erode your relationship, and to some extent to set portions of yourselves against other portions. It drove Ruburt at times to try to deny womanhood, to assure you and herself that her body would not betray you both. He would not have his periods—thus he would show both of you, symbolically, that you need not fear his body, since it obviously was not functioning as a woman’s should.

Ruburt’s physical system has felt the strain simply because both of you feel that it is his body that would be the threat in the child area. You both become panicky therefore in two main areas—both that would affect your primary directives, to devote yourselves to artistic and psychic work.