“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

As I will tell you, these goals have strong connections in past lives, and in this life you each gave yourselves powerful psychological charges to insure that these goals would be followed through. You chose parental circumstances therefore that would presuppose you toward those directions that you had already decided upon.

You chose ahead of time therefore to be driven along certain directions. Now. Both of you decided that you would give your lives to creative work. Both of you decided that you would have no children, not only because this fit in with the first goal, but because the energy connected with family life would go into your creative productions, would be saved and available when you began to embark upon the psychic work for which you had also planned.

You both felt that the most innocent of caresses could destroy the foundation of your lives. This was certainly overcompensation. It tended for a while to erode your relationship, and to some extent to set portions of yourselves against other portions. It drove Ruburt at times to try to deny womanhood, to assure you and herself that her body would not betray you both. He would not have his periods—thus he would show both of you, symbolically, that you need not fear his body, since it obviously was not functioning as a woman’s should.

It shows itself in those matters that he does not communicate with you. It shows itself also in a possessive characteristic that is not as obvious as your tendency in the same direction in your own work. He is deeply offended and outraged at any “invasion” into his own territory—the student who goes into his room at break, or the woman peeking at his notebook. This has to do with his feelings of late, of retreating from the main room. (The living room.)

Your relationship exists strongly and validly on many more levels than those between the majority of marriages. You therefore have of course more aspects both for fulfillment and strain to develop. Your work lives are far more intertwined than even you realize, and that is why you cannot isolate one area in your case from another area of activity. This is extremely important, and often overlooked while superficially recognized.

Ruburt would be, and is, susceptible to advances made on your part in the kitchen—the woman’s area; also in the living room, which is fairly neutral to both of you; or in his working place, for he has always been aware of the connection there. The bedroom has been an alarm area for both of you sexually, for the reasons made obvious, I should hope, and your studio has definitely been an alarm area on your part.

(11:25. Jane’s trance had been deep throughout the session, her pace for the most part quite fast. I thought it one of the best sessions she has given. It’s certain to prove invaluable to us in daily living. Jane hasn’t seen it yet as I write these notes. I want to go over it with her, then keep it available for frequent reference.)