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At our next session I will do your tape for you. I would not even tell Ruburt ahead of time (humorously), but even I need the tape in the recorder.

Now I tell you that he has been checking such impulses a good fifty times a day, this including impulses of which he has not been consciously aware. He is ready now to become aware of these. They are just beneath consciousness, and will yield readily to his attention. He must obviously make an attempt to accept them, and that at least is a step in the proper direction. What he is becoming aware of clearly and consciously is the residue, the checks and balances, that he has been using to restrict physical activity.

I expect then a concentrated effort to spontaneously accept impulses toward action and immediate performance of the act. The checking and subsequent blocking occurs three or four times usually at your meal. Several times both morning and afternoon when he is at his desk. Now these are simple impulses to get up. Other impulses involve leaving the apartment, going down the stairs. He checks the impulses—now, he checks the natural impulse—to throw his arms out straight away. (Gestures; emphatic delivery.)

He also blocks impulses to eat during the day, or sometimes before bed. He does not do this at meals, but the small snacks that he would ordinarily want, he does not take. He has not been tying to run, as I specified. This is important, for to him running is a happy, spontaneous activity, and he has blocked the impulse at times rather consciously because he feared he could not do it, that it would hurt or that he would look silly.

Here, for his own reasons, as given much earlier, he latched upon what he considered and interpreted as cautiousness on your part. You used to tell him (underline used) not to tell everyone his good news, for example, perhaps lest it did not develop. In his own way at that time (underlined), he picked up the habit of checking happy spontaneity, and he felt you were accusing if he displayed it, and in small ways began blocking. Later he himself did not trust any good development, and so felt unsure in expressing it. He also interpreted a habit of “natural secrecy” (in quotes) on your part quite literally. To keep a secret was not to express it. This is simply background that did apply however to the running aspect—either running physically or running off at the mouth. So it is important that he begin showing himself that he can run, and now he knows that you will heartily approve. Now give us a moment for our dictation.