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Ruburt has made advances today, partially aided by the receipt of the contracts (for the dream book), but also for reasons given by me recently. He should indeed now learn to become aware of those immediately denied impulses toward motion, of which he spoke this evening. And of course to follow through with the motion, rather than to check it as he has often done.

Now I tell you that he has been checking such impulses a good fifty times a day, this including impulses of which he has not been consciously aware. He is ready now to become aware of these. They are just beneath consciousness, and will yield readily to his attention. He must obviously make an attempt to accept them, and that at least is a step in the proper direction. What he is becoming aware of clearly and consciously is the residue, the checks and balances, that he has been using to restrict physical activity.

I told you that he was ready for a giant (underlined) improvement, and a necessary requirement was and is his recognition of the impulses that he has been denying or restricting. Getting up and down from the floor, as I knew it would, reawakened muscular memory, you see, and this in turn knocked at the door of his consciousness, jarring him into new recognitions. He will know that he is accepting these impulses, and they will become points of triumph now, and can serve as gateways to achievement.

I expect then a concentrated effort to spontaneously accept impulses toward action and immediate performance of the act. The checking and subsequent blocking occurs three or four times usually at your meal. Several times both morning and afternoon when he is at his desk. Now these are simple impulses to get up. Other impulses involve leaving the apartment, going down the stairs. He checks the impulses—now, he checks the natural impulse—to throw his arms out straight away. (Gestures; emphatic delivery.)

He is seldom aware that that impulse is even there, so I want him to look for the impulse whenever a situation would seem to call for that motion, and he will find it… other impulses he is now becoming aware of. At one point they were buried. This includes the impulses to sink down upon his knees when the occasion warrants it, and to rest upon his hands when the occasion would warrant it.

It is his fingers that want to grasp firmly, and he out of fear, fearful habit, has blocked the impulse. Reading this will remind him of that; but again here, when he is about to open something, or to grasp it, I want him to try to feel the impulse to do so, and then go along with it.

Even in his experience today he has gratified portions of the body by allowing them proper motion. This automatically improves such things as circulation and distribution of nutriments and energy throughout the organism. It reassures muscular memory, and again, he can no longer accept himself as someone who cannot perform a certain motion.

These activities also open up nerve sources and make more energy available to him, because he is not using so much energy in blockages. He quite surprised himself this evening, and there are more surprises to come. Tell him tomorrow morning I expect him to begin writing his book. He is simply to write even if he only produces five pages that he does not use, or that he ends up throwing away.

This material should be placed with the other recent sessions for him, on the top. I am keeping up with his progress, and these hints for him are uniquely tailored for his present development. He will do well with his book. He sees himself as not having begun it however, even though he has a chapter done, with which he is not entirely pleased.

He is to begin writing, and to continue each day, and the book will take care of itself. It makes no difference where he begins to write. But I expect five pages tomorrow.

He also blocks impulses to eat during the day, or sometimes before bed. He does not do this at meals, but the small snacks that he would ordinarily want, he does not take. He has not been tying to run, as I specified. This is important, for to him running is a happy, spontaneous activity, and he has blocked the impulse at times rather consciously because he feared he could not do it, that it would hurt or that he would look silly.

Here, for his own reasons, as given much earlier, he latched upon what he considered and interpreted as cautiousness on your part. You used to tell him (underline used) not to tell everyone his good news, for example, perhaps lest it did not develop. In his own way at that time (underlined), he picked up the habit of checking happy spontaneity, and he felt you were accusing if he displayed it, and in small ways began blocking. Later he himself did not trust any good development, and so felt unsure in expressing it. He also interpreted a habit of “natural secrecy” (in quotes) on your part quite literally. To keep a secret was not to express it. This is simply background that did apply however to the running aspect—either running physically or running off at the mouth. So it is important that he begin showing himself that he can run, and now he knows that you will heartily approve. Now give us a moment for our dictation.