“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt held back from the recognition of desire, physical desire, for many reasons, and subconsciously now that he has begun listening to his inner feelings, he has been using this as a sort of test case.

Dare he let himself be aware of these feelings when he feels them, give expression to them, since they also involve you? Will you feel threatened, how will you react? The feelings of desire therefore are symbols also of other inhibited feelings. While legitimate in themselves he watches your reaction to them very closely.

Is it really safe for him to let go entirely? Will you accept him as the emotional creature that he is, as you accept the intellectual creature that he is? I thought I would cue you in here.

The desire then becomes a symbol, and is in any case, of spontaneous feelings and energies. (Pause.) They bring release in themselves, and the system also clears itself in other ways as a result. But if he seems afraid it is because he fears, in an exaggerated manner, that if given freedom he would want you, and you would consider this disruptive, of work and schedule.

He may then in the beginning want you particularly when you are working, to prove the point that he will not be rejected.

I wanted you both to be aware of this. He is saying, really, is it safe to admit all feelings now? (I nodded yes.) He is at the point you see where he is beginning to do so. The practice is good for him. The roof will not fall in.

This matter is extremely vital however. He was afraid of himself so he could hardly give himself. Do you follow me?