“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane and I sat for the session as usual on Monday, May 5, but it was not held. Jane at session time was in an extremely relaxed state, and she could not bring Seth through, although we waited until 10 PM.

(Tam Mossman and his fiancée Eve had been our guests over the past weekend, May 2—4; he had heartily approved the work Jane has completed on the Seth book and we thought that this belief might have something to do with Jane’s very relaxed state. Jane said no conscious suggestions, that she was aware of, had been involved today or this evening. Tam is Jane’s editor at Prentice-Hall, Inc.

(Jane said the sensations were “like a loss of tension,” and I thought it was a general release from her symptoms, at least temporarily, plus a dissociated state. While sitting in the usual rocking chair she uses during sessions, Jane said that at times she felt as though she were outside the house, enjoying the spring air, grass, flowers, etc. She told me that at various times Seth was around during the evening while we waited, but never did come through.

(Jane experienced a remarkable release from symptoms, but even so her neck was not fully released, as she determined by testing. She had done some yoga this afternoon, but she didn’t think this had anything to do with the present state.

(The next morning, we must note, the symptoms had returned; Jane was tight and stiff, though as the day wore on they lessened.

(My question had to do with the various kinds of experience sought by the inner self. I wondered, with some apparent irritation, why Jane’s inner self would permit such a detriment as the symptoms to continue for so long. Once the experience of the illness had been gained, it seemed to me, it made better sense for the inner self to terminate the particular experience and move on to others. I thought there were many more valuable kinds of experiences to be had in many kinds of healthier, more creative endeavors, instead of letting the symptoms interfere with Jane’s attempts to perform such creative endeavors.

(When Jane’s symptoms were intensified following the exceptionally relaxed state of Monday night. No matter what improvements may have taken place, as Seth states, during such times it is very difficult to be aware of anything but the present.)

(Panic is not the right word exactly—anger would be better. I felt the episode was unnecessary. This is being typed on May 10—three days after it was held. So far Jane hasn’t said anything about what caused Tuesday’s episode.)