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Remember that all of your behavior was not negative however, and give thanks for those abilities and accomplishments that are your own. Now, imagine (underlined) how you will feel when your paintings sell, the joy that they will bring others, the joy that you will feel knowing they are wanted. Imagine what you will do as you sell so many paintings that you need more time to produce them, and how you will then leave your job in order to paint, and the sort of place you will live, and the feeling of contentment and creative challenge that will fill you.

Your trip (Sunday, April 13; we drove to Cortland, NY) was beneficial, but it was impeded by negative thoughts of Ruburt’s, and also to some degree by the fact that you pointed out his symptoms without reminding him that the inner self could and would minimize them. You need to remind him when he forgets.

(True. At break I took pains to explain to Jane that with the new approach I was using, I was quite aware that Seth had said it all before, and planned to go back over portions of the material thoroughly.)

He still believed in the fantastic ability of destruction, and he tried to cover it up. He did not believe that strongly in the creative function of his own being, and in the natural abundance of life itself. He was more pessimistic than you realized. A sick kitten was a dead kitten, not one who might recover.

If he could not reach out to comb his hair correctly then he was no good, a cripple for life, and useless. Much of this has fallen away, but some patterns remain, though he is now alert to many of them.

(9:52—10:06. Jane’s delivery was fast, etc.)

In your particular circumstances it was understandable that a while would elapse before you would put these truths to work for you in physical terms. To do so however increases their spiritual help also, for you see the results and then you have to realize that the truths are real.

It was only your idea that this was not natural that prevented you from using your abilities fully. Ruburt thought it was natural for him to become ill because of his background, and to overreact for the same reason. He thought it was natural for him to be afraid of life because his mother was.

You thought it was natural and inevitable because of your background that you should not have money, even that you should be a loner for the same reason, and deny yourself natural companionship. Part of this you circumvented. The rest you did not.

You did not want to give of yourself to the world because you felt that this was a natural reaction, picked up from your father. You would paint, but not share. When you realize that health and abundance are natural, and illness and limitation unnatural, then you are free, free to develop, to use what you have, to give and take.

This does not mean you cannot have a home where there is no traffic, and where it is still. If you persisted upon focusing on noise rather than quiet however, you would find no quiet regardless of the circumstances. It would obviously be ridiculous to settle in the middle of a city like New York if you valued quiet above all things, so common sense operates. Yet even in the midst of that noise you could find quiet if that was your reality. There are several more points I want to make, rather important ones.