“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(“I do think of that.”)

He would do literally anything to see you relieved and happy, and working productively. He thought, or felt, that by taking on the symptoms of your joint problem, he could free you creatively, and was bewildered when it did not.

When you do move you have a tendency to feel that Ruburt should pay for the inconvenience. Here you associate him with your mother, and Ruburt feels this unfair. Except for our sessions there has been little freshness in your environments because you would find it, both of you now, threatening. In other words you have preferred to place the problem, both of you again, upon Ruburt in physical terms, rather than face the inner issues with initiative and daring.

You do to some extent identify with your mother, in terms of a husband rather than a son, now that the king, father, has been removed. Ruburt feels that the mother acts as a center from which you will not move, but feels guilty of this feeling. To some extent out of misguided loyalty, all of the men in your mother’s life have kept her from using her own strength.

Her happiness is not dependent upon your activities however. She has far more vitality than any of you give her credit for. She will make out, in Ruburt’s terms, no matter what you do, or your brothers do. You have used this as an excuse.

The thought of the Seth sale revived you. Then the old ideas of hopelessness settled back in, particularly when Ruburt discovered the taxes. You have both been resentful against your landlord, and particularly against Leonard Yaudes, and he had something to do with Ruburt’s latest (underlined) symptoms.

I am not speaking of the physical challenges of other jobs. You misinterpret me. I am telling you that when your entire physical circumstances appear hopeless to you, then you must change them, or honestly admit that these are the circumstances within which you must work, and not fool yourself. And when you do not feel that the physical circumstances are worthwhile, that you are not getting enough out of them, that the disadvantages outweigh the advantages, then you must change them. Here again attitude is all important.

One note. You would both do better nearer water.