“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It was afraid that psychic endeavor would leave it open for further scorn, and it would not for a while allow ordinary motion, until it was somewhat assured that it would not meet with contempt for its efforts. It was particularly afraid of ridicule, rather say than of hatred. (Long pause.) The affair with the school psychologist, and the class here, infuriated him, and he hid his reaction. The school was the college again, you see, and the academic community that had already rejected him as a student in the past. For a while he should have nothing to do with the college.

It was no coincidence however that Ruburt’s Father Trayner read him poetry, inspired Ruburt’s love of poetry, and that Ruburt would feel that he had to use poetry to express ideas with which his mentor did not agree.

The psychic influence of the other priests was far more creative than he realizes, and it was always in the realm of ideas that he rebelled against authority. That is important. He did not leave the church, literally, until long after he had left it spiritually. Yet all of his religious background gave him an immersion in a strong organized religion. Inside that framework he learned what was wrong with it, and from his experiences was born the strong inner, barely conscious, desire to help his fellow beings emerge into some kind of lucidity. There were strong pressures operating. All that remains is for him to realize that he is indeed now on the right track. Do you want to rest your fingers?

(10:01. Jane’s eyes opened quickly. I was quite upset by the material given, even though we had already talked a lot of it over before the session. Both of us were looking for ways to break the cycle of symptoms. I suggested a pattern of protective measures we could take. Resume at 10:10.)

He felt that the professor was bringing his students to show them he was a fraud. His sense of duty was actually a coverup. He knew he did not want the people here, and thought he was a coward. Now give us time.

Now when I gave the session for our lady of Venice, I spoke as an authority, as myself, and there was no representative of the college present. This did not bother Ruburt therefore.

Now on one occasion he did very well, although he picked up strong ideas from you of a negative nature, and this incident, in time, was connected with the college affair. He spoke to Mrs. Stein and her friend, and picked up your ideas concerning the gallery. He did surmount them you see, and the interview was creative.

I explained earlier his exaggerated notion of aggression and also the reasons behind it. The smallest aggressive jerking of his mother’s bed could cause her pain, you see. Tremendous self-control was exerted. Do you follow me?

So there was an exaggerated idea of the effect of normally expressed aggression. A normal child at times can slap its parent back, and the parent is obviously immune. The child’s strength is nothing against the parent's. In Ruburt’s case such normal reactions were out of the question.