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(An excellent session, deleted from the record. Read the whole thing often. On Jane’s childhood, fear of aggression; religion; my role, etc. Ego and health and illness. Illness not natural, etc. Psychic abilities and fear of ridicule.)

The ego’s desire for health and the organism’s impetus toward health, are constant balances, and are always present. The illness is not to be regarded as a natural (underlined) event, but the reason for it sought. The reason is often a lack of a quality. The realization of the lack and the mental, emotional and psychic acquisition of the quality, brings the illness to a close.

It was afraid that psychic endeavor would leave it open for further scorn, and it would not for a while allow ordinary motion, until it was somewhat assured that it would not meet with contempt for its efforts. It was particularly afraid of ridicule, rather say than of hatred. (Long pause.) The affair with the school psychologist, and the class here, infuriated him, and he hid his reaction. The school was the college again, you see, and the academic community that had already rejected him as a student in the past. For a while he should have nothing to do with the college.

Now regardless of the nature of our sessions, their legitimacy and my own reality, only certain peculiarly gifted personalities would be able to make consistent contact, to obtain such information over a period of time. Only a certain kind of personality could find balance between spontaneity and discipline. Literally, as you recognize, a tremendous creative endeavor is required. A personality embarking upon such pursuits had to allow for various emotional and psychic elements from early childhood.

These elements would then be put together in such a way that they would give the impetus and the psychic challenge, the need to know, that could result in work like ours.

The psychic influence of the other priests was far more creative than he realizes, and it was always in the realm of ideas that he rebelled against authority. That is important. He did not leave the church, literally, until long after he had left it spiritually. Yet all of his religious background gave him an immersion in a strong organized religion. Inside that framework he learned what was wrong with it, and from his experiences was born the strong inner, barely conscious, desire to help his fellow beings emerge into some kind of lucidity. There were strong pressures operating. All that remains is for him to realize that he is indeed now on the right track. Do you want to rest your fingers?