“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It was afraid that psychic endeavor would leave it open for further scorn, and it would not for a while allow ordinary motion, until it was somewhat assured that it would not meet with contempt for its efforts. It was particularly afraid of ridicule, rather say than of hatred. (Long pause.) The affair with the school psychologist, and the class here, infuriated him, and he hid his reaction. The school was the college again, you see, and the academic community that had already rejected him as a student in the past. For a while he should have nothing to do with the college.

He also remembered that they had turned him down when he looked for work. Give us a moment.

That affair should not bother him, nor did the Methodist group. You see, he is really working in new religious frontiers. He has no hang-ups with Protestant groups.

(“Do the Gallaghers bother him?”)

It was no coincidence however that Ruburt’s Father Trayner read him poetry, inspired Ruburt’s love of poetry, and that Ruburt would feel that he had to use poetry to express ideas with which his mentor did not agree.

The psychic influence of the other priests was far more creative than he realizes, and it was always in the realm of ideas that he rebelled against authority. That is important. He did not leave the church, literally, until long after he had left it spiritually. Yet all of his religious background gave him an immersion in a strong organized religion. Inside that framework he learned what was wrong with it, and from his experiences was born the strong inner, barely conscious, desire to help his fellow beings emerge into some kind of lucidity. There were strong pressures operating. All that remains is for him to realize that he is indeed now on the right track. Do you want to rest your fingers?

I am trying to get at more material here. When (underlined) you can manage a trip it will be advantageous because of the literal bent his mind often takes. To him a change of environment is a change of mind. (Smile.)

There is more here. See if we can get at it. (Pause.) When he feels he has stumbled he does not walk right. When he cannot look to the right or the left it is because he is afraid to. (Very rapidly.) When his ankle bothers him it is because he fears he might fly off in the wrong direction. When his fingers are full it is because of accumulated bitterness, unspoken. When his periods are late he is “holding out” in quotes until he is certain of his direction.

This caused him to withhold his strength under such circumstances. Those who felt it were obviously hurt out of all proportion. Now he did not realize this completely earlier, and this should help. It is more important than I can say.

On the positive side to some extent it even led to our sessions, for he knows that my material, the material, can help prevent people from hurting each other. On the negative side, for him personally, it can lead to an exaggerated idea of the individual’s vulnerability.

You have told him that life is far more generous, that there are built-in mechanisms of defense. He magnifies the terrors. He imagines, with the stray cats, you see, for the same reason.

You can help lead him to an understanding of the fact that life is far more vigorous than he realizes. It will also help to point out that he has positively used many of these elements creatively. He must not project an exaggerated idea of the power of aggression. At some time or another almost every child wishes that his parent or parents were dead, and the parents manage to survive quite well, until they are quite ready to leave your sphere of activity.

Have him read this session at least several times. And I wish you a fond good evening.