“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It was afraid that psychic endeavor would leave it open for further scorn, and it would not for a while allow ordinary motion, until it was somewhat assured that it would not meet with contempt for its efforts. It was particularly afraid of ridicule, rather say than of hatred. (Long pause.) The affair with the school psychologist, and the class here, infuriated him, and he hid his reaction. The school was the college again, you see, and the academic community that had already rejected him as a student in the past. For a while he should have nothing to do with the college.

(“Do the Gallaghers bother him?”)

The personality for best purposes would have to be a woman, for the intuitive nature is more easily developed. I do not want to go tonight too deeply into other connotations, for they can lead us astray right now.

The psychic influence of the other priests was far more creative than he realizes, and it was always in the realm of ideas that he rebelled against authority. That is important. He did not leave the church, literally, until long after he had left it spiritually. Yet all of his religious background gave him an immersion in a strong organized religion. Inside that framework he learned what was wrong with it, and from his experiences was born the strong inner, barely conscious, desire to help his fellow beings emerge into some kind of lucidity. There were strong pressures operating. All that remains is for him to realize that he is indeed now on the right track. Do you want to rest your fingers?

You may. Give us a moment. (Pause.) The religious area is tricky, because it contains high potentials for his development, and also sore points, you see. If he is asked to speak out of sincere desire, he can do his best. If he feels he is on trial in the religious area, then this has negative connotations.

(“What could he possibly do, that is so terrible, that would hurt others?”)

I explained earlier his exaggerated notion of aggression and also the reasons behind it. The smallest aggressive jerking of his mother’s bed could cause her pain, you see. Tremendous self-control was exerted. Do you follow me?

(Long pause.) Do you have questions?

(“I have often wondered: why do such childhood experiences have such lasting effects through an adult life, that may be many years longer?”)

The effect is also positive. Again, it leads to Ruburt’s desire to help others, and to look for a way to do so.