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His loyalty, once given, is under most circumstances irreversible, unless deceit is involved. At the time he believed deceit was involved in the church hierarchy.

A definite strain therefore developed, particularly painful since it involved his work also, to which he has always been strongly committed. He recognized the value of our endeavors to his work. On the other hand he still was not completely (underlined) committed, and therefore mistrusted.

He did not want to use his work (pause) to place his work, at the service of a cause to which he was not indelibly committed. (Long pause, eyes closed.) He has always been concerned with teaching, as I have been. The conscientious portions of the personality are of great benefit in that area. (Voice quiet but firm and emphatic). He must believe completely in what he is doing, in what he is teaching, or he feels himself deceitful.

His energy was very purposefully restrained and held back last winter. He denied himself its use to anything like full capacity, for reasons given earlier, and also because he refused to use it rather than misuse it. He had to be more certain of our cause before he would allow himself to direct energy into it.

He could not do this in one area, and not in others. Therefore the energy was held largely in abeyance. (Pause.) The inner self grappled. Large portions of the self were won over, and the symptoms began to lessen, and the energy to return. The classes were of great benefit, and are. (Pause.)

You may take a brief break and I shall continue. His mother, incidentally, was deeply terrified of faith healers. (Pause.)

(10:12. Jane was far out, etc. Resume at 10:22. )

Now. Le Cron (Leslie Le Cron, author of Self Hypnotism) was a help at a time when he needed to reexamine his past.

(10:55. Jane was far out, etc.)