“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Here he has tried to hold back, and yet not hold back. One very large portion of the personality is totally committed to our endeavors. Another portion has so far withheld complete commitment, though the rejection seems greater by contrast. In others the rejection would come close to commitment, but for him this is not enough.

He did not want to use his work (pause) to place his work, at the service of a cause to which he was not indelibly committed. (Long pause, eyes closed.) He has always been concerned with teaching, as I have been. The conscientious portions of the personality are of great benefit in that area. (Voice quiet but firm and emphatic). He must believe completely in what he is doing, in what he is teaching, or he feels himself deceitful.

He could not do this in one area, and not in others. Therefore the energy was held largely in abeyance. (Pause.) The inner self grappled. Large portions of the self were won over, and the symptoms began to lessen, and the energy to return. The classes were of great benefit, and are. (Pause.)