“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He is strongly accusing toward anything he regards as religious deceit, because of his experience you see, with several priests in the past. There is some connection here. He is deeply committed to his idea of truth and goodness. When he could no longer believe in the tenets of the Catholic Church wholeheartedly, fervently and completely, he divorced himself from it as thoroughly as he had once embraced its tenets.

His loyalty, once given, is under most circumstances irreversible, unless deceit is involved. At the time he believed deceit was involved in the church hierarchy.

His potential for commitment is truly powerful. He is committed to you for example, in this way. He is being overly cautious, realizing the strength of his commitments. He makes few of them. It has been all or nothing until this point.

A definite strain therefore developed, particularly painful since it involved his work also, to which he has always been strongly committed. He recognized the value of our endeavors to his work. On the other hand he still was not completely (underlined) committed, and therefore mistrusted.

He did not want to use his work (pause) to place his work, at the service of a cause to which he was not indelibly committed. (Long pause, eyes closed.) He has always been concerned with teaching, as I have been. The conscientious portions of the personality are of great benefit in that area. (Voice quiet but firm and emphatic). He must believe completely in what he is doing, in what he is teaching, or he feels himself deceitful.

His energy was very purposefully restrained and held back last winter. He denied himself its use to anything like full capacity, for reasons given earlier, and also because he refused to use it rather than misuse it. He had to be more certain of our cause before he would allow himself to direct energy into it.

You may take a brief break and I shall continue. His mother, incidentally, was deeply terrified of faith healers. (Pause.)

Now, I could not give you this material earlier, for he would not allow it. It would make no impression upon him had I given it, nor would my appearance have convinced him of anything more than what he would consider his own duplicity. The session itself therefore is an indication of his progress.

Now. Le Cron (Leslie Le Cron, author of Self Hypnotism) was a help at a time when he needed to reexamine his past.

Now however Maltz (Psycho-Cybernetics) is called for, and his idea of reacting only within the bright focus of the present. This alone, when Ruburt realizes its implications, will be of great help.

Even if he takes a conscious neutral stand, this will be of great benefit, for as he overreacts, he overreacts to his own doubts. They are not as severe as they appear to him. Even a neutrality here will be a step forward on the part of consciousness, you see.

In any case he must realize that no fraud is involved. He is not lying, as the child is accused of doing when he describes something his parents consider outlandish.

Let him remind himself that he is fearless in his poetry, and commits himself to it fully, and his ability here has always led him onward to further unfoldments and never into betrayal or deceit. It is precisely this same kind of ability he is using now. (In trance.)

(Emphatically.) I am now you see so a part of his system at this moment that no part of his consciousness can sit aside and isolate me. He would like to isolate me and observe me. When he allows himself more freedom,he will be able to sense me in definite terms, though as a rule not during a session.

Yet, I cannot completely be myself while within his system, since I am using his nervous system. It is the mixture of strangeness and familiarity that confuses him in this regard. It is not possible for me to speak through him, now, without using his physical structure.