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(Jane and I engaged in a long discussion this evening, covering a lot of ground concerning her symptoms, my role, her lingering and bothersome symptom hang-ons, etc. Much of what we talked about is developed in the brief session that followed. For the first time, however, Jane gave voice to some doubts about the sessions that I had not realized she entertained. The purpose of the discussion was to unearth any reasons for the symptoms that we hadn’t touched upon, and we struck pay dirt here. These discussions are uniformly beneficial.

This was not the whole problem. It is merely the portion of the problem that still remains. It has been there since the first.

Ruburt was strongly committed to the sessions on the one hand, and highly skeptical on the other. Your own illness did literally terrify him, and he feared that if he faced his true doubts concerning my existence, that he would hurt you.

His own inner belief in the sessions was strong, and is still strong, but the other conflict continued. He misused such abilities in a past life, and this time he is having to work for them.

We will have a freer hand since Ruburt has vocalized some of his doubts. Before he was reluctant to do so as clearly as he did this evening. Had there been a strong or powerful overall threat to Ruburt, I would have discontinued the sessions. These are growing pains, that are already passing.

(“Was this in Boston?”)

This was.

He used them indiscriminately. (Pause.) Wait now... He let them run away with him, and is doubly afraid now. He used little common sense, and was overly emotional, reading signs where there were none, and ignoring the fine intellect that he had even then.

(“Was he male or female?”)

(“Was he male or female?”)

His own mother in this life had, and has, abilities. He was frightened of her, you see, and therefore frightened of the abilities. There is a growing acceptance on the part of the whole personality now; as he sees these abilities help others, his students for example, he grows to trust them more.

He was never afraid of me. He was afraid for portions of himself, for reasons having little to do with me, per se. (Pause.) The spontaneous self he was afraid of. The conscientious self becomes much more pleased as time goes on and others are helped.

Periods of belief would be followed by periods of skepticism, and the wavering nature makes it most difficult for me to give him the very assurance that he needs. This was one of the reasons for the table developments, and these will be followed by others.

For himself he knows that he will continue, that his improvement is definite. Though the decision is his, I have never come when I was not wanted, nor would I.

(10:44. Actually this was the end of the session. I had asked for a break only in case Jane had any questions she wanted Seth to answer.