“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Otherwise you utilize some qualities at the expense of others and do not as quickly attain your goals. As Ruburt thrusts ahead, trusting his ability in his poetry, so he should in his psychic work, and now in vigorous physical activity. The idea of restraint therefore must be banished.

He does indeed often speak without thinking, and when he does he often influences people most. Now he must trust himself to move physically without thinking, and as much as possible to let his body act in a spontaneous way. Do not keep checking. This does not mean he should ignore discomfort particularly, but he should take his conscious mind away from his physical body and let it operate alone.

And I repeat, he should indeed stay away from spiritualistic literature. Not because there is anything basically wrong with it, but because it presents him with a dilemma. He knows intuitively what he knows. Intellectually he will catch up with this. The spiritualistic literature causes a needless conflict between his intellect and intuitions.

The intuitions will clear this up for him if he lets the matter rest, and again trust his inner self. If you trust your inner self, the penis difficulty will vanish.

(Smile.) I must help you, for you are brothers left behind. You are therefore challenges to me. Your progress is my challenge. Ruburt’s condition now is his challenge, for in overcoming it he overcomes limitations of which he was not aware before. Only when they became physical was he acquainted with them.

Ruburt’s recovery will be the symbol of a far greater recovery and of inner development that will never fail him. He must now push himself to physical activity, into vigorous action, and in doing so he is expressing the inner decision that he will no longer tamper with intuitional spontaneity. He has learned what happens when he does, and he has unlearned the false and distorted lesson that was put upon him in his early years.

He will have finally learned intellectually and consciously, that he need not fear the spontaneous self, which has always been his strength, for it sustains him. He was made to deeply fear it, and it was a strong, dominant part of his personality. The psychic work made him fear that he had allowed it to go too far.

The ego found poetry acceptable and never challenged it. The psychic work was something else entirely. This, with other problems mentioned earlier, led him to a deep mistrust of the intuitional self. He felt he could not go ahead.

He needed time to get his bearings. He felt psychologically paralyzed to some strong degree, and this was reflected in physical terms. Luckily the intuitional self did not retreat to any large extent. The developments were already fact, and worked to good advantage.

All activities are good for him, mental and physical. His classes stir him up, you see. It was fear that slowed him down. Faith in his abilities and in himself as a part of All That Is, will now set him in motion. He picked up restraints from you because he was open to the idea of restraint so strongly.

Before, he used his intuitional abilities but always intellectually mistrusted them to some degree. Now he will trust them consciously and intellectually, and this development had to occur for his fulfillment now. It was a prerequisite for other developments and work that will come.