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(Sunday afternoon, November 5, I devoted to a long pendulum session, concerning my attitudes as related to Jane’s symptoms; it was most beneficial and rewarding, and we were anxious to have Seth’s comments on it this evening.

(Complete notes made during the pendulum session are on file. This afternoon, incidentally, Jane and I spent in Sayre, visiting my father in the hospital, eating supper with mother, etc.

Now. You did indeed see your father (as my pendulum told me) not as a man who failed in several important areas, but as a failure in all areas: as a husband, breadwinner, father. (Pause.) You identified with him however out of fear of your mother’s emotionalism. You did not dare identify with her.

She was an activist, so you tried to become the opposite. Now then: on the one hand you attempted to be virile by identifying with your father, yet he was also to you the symbol of a failure. To be a failure therefore was virile (as my pendulum told me).

At the crisis point you were both alienated. He was completely bewildered. He was doing what he felt you wanted him to do, yet the results displeased you, and he felt you found him physically repulsive. In desperation you both began to question inner attitudes, and you then broke the ice with a pendulum session. (See the 350th Session.)

(Here Seth clears up a point in Sunday’s pendulum session, in which the pendulum told me I was not jealous of Jane, but envious of her success. I wanted to be sure I wasn’t confused on the jealousy-envy terminology; I also wondered if there was actually any difference.)