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Now give us a moment. (Pause, hand to eyes.)

You see, now, more clearly than you have, that your problems are the results of unfortunate personal reactions and interactions, that two are involved here rather than one.

Now. You did indeed see your father (as my pendulum told me) not as a man who failed in several important areas, but as a failure in all areas: as a husband, breadwinner, father. (Pause.) You identified with him however out of fear of your mother’s emotionalism. You did not dare identify with her.

She was an activist, so you tried to become the opposite. Now then: on the one hand you attempted to be virile by identifying with your father, yet he was also to you the symbol of a failure. To be a failure therefore was virile (as my pendulum told me).

Now. There are specific steps you can both take, and we will get to these.

The overall self chose the background. Now. Ruburt has always been primarily driven by a desire to write successfully. His mother encouraged the writing. At the same time he felt guilty that he was free and the mother was not, and he blamed himself to some degree for her situation. The mother did blame the child in this respect.

Now these feelings served to put success off. They were not strong enough to deny it entirely, and he was working through them, although this took considerable energy.

Now. You can change the past, and in doing so change the present and the future. You can change the present, and in doing so change the past and the future. You can change the future, and in doing so change the present and the past.

His symptoms represented his problem. He felt literally paralyzed, and unable to move. Now he can move, but he still cannot run, you see. He moves much better. He is partially released but far from fully.

Subjectively, when you were jealous (see the 350th Session) you were actively jealous of Ruburt for being successful, and wished to strike out in retaliation. When you feel envious now, you envy his success, but you are not jealous of him as a person.

Now my dear friend—(staring at me, Jane tapped with her foot on the coffee table between us) your hats, your caps... Do you see any connection?

(I now remembered father’s caps, once Seth mentioned them. But I felt somewhat in a dilemma, since father also wears regular hats.)

Now let me see. (Pause.) Both of you should read the book Ruburt purchased, carefully, and follow most of its instructions. (Psycho-Cybernetics). I will give you specific material to use along with the book, and will add my own explanations.

Now all of this affected our sessions. My ability to help is determined by many issues. Ruburt’s overall condition has to some extent impeded us, (pause) and because of a distrust of his own abilities he will sometimes doubt my legitimacy. Such doubts then impeding his progress and limiting what help I have to offer. (Pause.)

(“We’ll end it now.”)