“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Complete notes made during the pendulum session are on file. This afternoon, incidentally, Jane and I spent in Sayre, visiting my father in the hospital, eating supper with mother, etc.

Now. You did indeed see your father (as my pendulum told me) not as a man who failed in several important areas, but as a failure in all areas: as a husband, breadwinner, father. (Pause.) You identified with him however out of fear of your mother’s emotionalism. You did not dare identify with her.

You identified with your father because he seemed free, in that she did not direct actively these strong affections toward him. To be like him then represented safety, for she did not like failures.

She was an activist, so you tried to become the opposite. Now then: on the one hand you attempted to be virile by identifying with your father, yet he was also to you the symbol of a failure. To be a failure therefore was virile (as my pendulum told me).

The father identification can be tackled. Vivid imagining of yourself as a success will automatically weaken it. It will also be weakened with the emotional understanding that you are an individual, identified with no other.

The uniqueness of your art will also weaken it, for your art could not ever be produced by your father. Your art is indeed an excellent defense, used in this manner, for it is an anthem of individuality, and a statement of uniqueness.

(“With my father?”)

(I now remembered father’s caps, once Seth mentioned them. But I felt somewhat in a dilemma, since father also wears regular hats.)