“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He wanted to be the father of boys. There is some matter here not clear, not distorted or blocked, simply not clear, concerning the actual desire for the birth of males, however. He wanted to be the father of three for his own reasons, rather than the father of one or two children, you see.

Now, and no distortion here from our friend (Jane), your mother was from the beginning a fragment, an offshoot actually, from the personality that she was in her last existence. The offshoot of fragment had to, and chose to, deal with the relationship that then took place between this fragment and your father.

As a change of environment affects twins, Twin A becoming something different again through a given environment from Twin B in another environment, so twins born in different times also develop different portions of a basic personality pattern. This is the case here.

The girl’s remark of surprise: “I didn’t expect to see you here,” was taken by the overly conscientious self as just rebuke. He was in excellent condition before the encounter.

Give us a moment here. The arms should now begin to release. They have been connected with a feeling of helplessness, mainly centered around his feeling that he was not contributing financially what he should. This month he felt fairly satisfied, finally.

There is also some self-protective device here still operating. The attempt to shield himself, you see, a lack of confidence. (Jane made a self-hugging gesture.) He has made increasing gains. They have occurred over periods of time however. (Long pause.)

You are close to releasing yourself in a particular way through your painting, through your work, and you will find this way intuitively. By close here, I mean very close. It is this very nearness that made you dissatisfied with what you had just finished, an inner comparison of this with work you will do in the very (underlined) near future; and no reflection on the leaf painting, except by future contrasts. Some hint of the new appeared in it.