“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In each of her three sons she sees portions of the man she married. They are not however open to her. She cannot find what she is after in them, and because of this she is also angry. She did not want children. Your father did.

Now, in a few of his delusions he was quite content. He imagined his sons as children sleeping. The whole personality who left is aware of the situation, but he is not vitally concerned. Your father began in this life as a whole personality. Various goals were set by him, and these were reached. He left a fragment of himself to satisfy the few lingering requirements.

He wanted to be the father of boys. There is some matter here not clear, not distorted or blocked, simply not clear, concerning the actual desire for the birth of males, however. He wanted to be the father of three for his own reasons, rather than the father of one or two children, you see.

The betrayal to her would be bitter. (One minute pause.) She realizes that Ruburt makes you an excellent wife. She hates her and loves her for this reason. In one way, when you were born, she was quite content that your father vanish. She did not want children, yet giving birth gave her a sense of power, the only sense of power she had experienced in this existence, and so she used this power as a weapon when she felt a weapon was needed.