“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The overly conscientious self also wants freedom of motion toward goals with which it agrees. It operates in a restricting fashion only when deeply suspicious of goals, and this suspicion is usually generated by a lack of communication.

The overly conscientious self is life-sustaining, however. It gives a steady abundance of energy when it approves of overall commitments. It must so approve for any advancements to be made. This gives direction to the spontaneous self. It does not limit the fields of endeavor however. It simply attempts to keep the self united and the energies clearly focused.

The overly conscientious self has distrusted frivolity. This still somewhat concerns it. This comes from the Irish grandmother. A suggestion that gaiety and frivolity are also natural aspects of life, and joyful celebrations of existence, harmless, in fact beneficial play exercises on the part of the soul, will help here.

Before bed this evening let Ruburt read his suggestions twice. This will take care of any lingering doubts on the part of the overly conscientious self concerning the success implied in the Fell letter.

To paint paintings for joy was an act of defiance against your mother, and so you have punished yourself in several ways; by being overly concerned with their quality, insisting upon perfection, and by not making strong efforts to sell them or to work for recognition in that field.

Wait. (Pause, hand raised.) I am concerned over your arbitrary idea of age and advancement in terms of what you should expect at your age. (A point I rather deliberately made during discussion at last break.) This is limiting in concept, and rather uncharacteristic of you in larger respects.