“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Give us a moment. (Pause.)

(Jane now began to pause more often. Her delivery slowed somewhat and her eyes were closed much of the time.)

To search for perfection within your art is good. The drive is good. But this is something different. Each painting has a spontaneous reality that you have often refused to acknowledge. (Pause.) Carried to extremes this could smother the spontaneous spark that is the heart of each painting.

(Long pause, eyes closed.) This session itself should aid your understanding enough to allow some improvement almost immediately in the condition itself. Two issues are involved. The painting was an act of defiance against your mother, an act of independence. She approved of the commercial art because it made money. Therefore if you made money through your paintings, then subconsciously you thought that your mother would still be getting her way. You see?

Now all of this operates at varying degrees, you see. The symptom was the recognition of conflict. (Pause.) Rest your hand a moment.

Working as you have also rouses associations with your father. (Long pause, eyes closed.)

Give us a moment. (Pause. Head down.) Now hear me. Using what you have learned here tonight, you can use your ability more freely. (Pause.) You can step out, so to speak, you can allow yourself to rely upon the integrity of spontaneity as it applies to your painting and to your talent.

Your potential is now. It did not exist as you conceive of it (Jane, lying back on the couch, turned to face me), until you felt free to let it emerge, and you did not. You should now. (Pause.

Wait. (Pause, hand raised.) I am concerned over your arbitrary idea of age and advancement in terms of what you should expect at your age. (A point I rather deliberately made during discussion at last break.) This is limiting in concept, and rather uncharacteristic of you in larger respects.

(Pause.) We will have more on this subject. You may now take a break or end as you prefer.

(After a long pause Jane came out of trance at 10:28. She said she had been much farther out than usual, and believed this was due to tonight’s material; she was afraid of hurting me. For this reason my questions and comments bothered her, she said. We discussed my abstract paintings briefly, speculating on the reasons people were attracted to them, and Seth came through briefly at 10:30.)