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Even the welfare considerations enter in here. He sat on the family porch Sunday to escape the house as he did as a child in Saratoga. In his subconscious your father and mother become two aspects both representing his own mother. The father, nearly crippled, to be cared for, and therefore frightening. Yet he spontaneously kissed the father, and tried to give him strength.

Your mother tried to change you into the image of the man she had known. You were to take his place, and she enjoyed it when you supported the household. Every bill you paid, or small item you purchased, had erotic connotations, and on two levels: on your part subconsciously, because you felt her strong emotional pull, though it terrified you; and on her part because you took the place of the father.

The old panic is being dispelled through the present situation with your parents. At a lesser degree of development this would not be the case. Both your father and your mother subconsciously know your position and Ruburt’s. Subconsciously they both know that this good is coming from their own situation.