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Ruburt is learning much to his advantage in the present circumstances regarding your own parents. The affair allows him to make comparisons, to compare and evaluate present events with past ones. To discharge, and then examine, emotional responses that have lain latent.

It is highly necessary then that his present course be maintained, expressing his emotions honestly to himself and to you; and examining them, if he prefers, afterward, then taking with you whatever steps are necessary in your family situation.

Ruburt should not brush aside any emotional connections then, but understand what is happening. For this process is releasing him already, and operates like a catharsis. His development allows this to happen. The situation, you see, somewhat earlier, could have had far different connotations, and he could not have handled them. This is very important, the above.

I will try this evening to help you on both of these levels. On Ruburt’s part he is finding himself able to handle a parental situation with you, along with you, even though the crisis evokes long repressed, highly charged emotions from his own past.

Even the welfare considerations enter in here. He sat on the family porch Sunday to escape the house as he did as a child in Saratoga. In his subconscious your father and mother become two aspects both representing his own mother. The father, nearly crippled, to be cared for, and therefore frightening. Yet he spontaneously kissed the father, and tried to give him strength.

The father, your father, represents to him, Ruburt, the helpless portions of his own mother, directed so to speak where he can see them. Your mother represents to him the destructive, unreasoning energies of his own mother, and in the pull and conflict between your mother and father, he sees the tortured connections of his mother’s soul.

In facing the situation in your parent’s house, he faces and conquers the situation once existing in his mother’s house. There is some resistance, but he now recognizes it as such, and is able to overcome it. The situation does not gobble him up. He was always afraid that it would.

Ruburt can see this then objectively. Your mother is not out to kill him personally. His mother was not out to kill him personally. He was simply there.

Her heavily applied, overly feminine characteristics, were donned by her to hold him in the early years. She had more strength than he. She pretended to be dominated by him, but both of them knew. (Pause.) He would have preferred daughters. She gave him sons hoping to pacify him, but he always felt that the sons challenged his vitality and position.

He gave up years ago. Her energy made him keep up appearances. Her vitality fed him, but it could not rouse him. Now he in his helplessness pays her back, and she rages against him. The sons left early, but he refuses to leave. She feels betrayed by the sons who left, and the father who stayed.

Your father fulfilled his main purpose in this existence, and was satisfied, sometime within five to seven years after his marriage. He wanted to leave then. The main portion of his personality, the integrating functions, the strong core, left, and rejoined the entity years ago. A fragment, the shell that you know, remained.

In each of her three sons she sees portions of the man she knew. (Long pause.) He will be reborn, and his abilities of inventiveness will play a large role in the 21st Century, where he shall be born in Egypt. (One minute pause.)

Your mother tried to change you into the image of the man she had known. You were to take his place, and she enjoyed it when you supported the household. Every bill you paid, or small item you purchased, had erotic connotations, and on two levels: on your part subconsciously, because you felt her strong emotional pull, though it terrified you; and on her part because you took the place of the father.

You nearly fell into disaster, living in the house. You knew you would meet Ruburt, however, and she tried to prevent it, for she knew it also. The shell of your father rejoiced. You recognized your predicament, and henceforth refused to take the main responsibility for your mother, which was the responsibility of a man for his wife.

Ruburt is developing his abilities, and I helped him on that occasion. He overintellectualizes when he works the table alone. Let him get his results, and do his critical work afterwards. His abilities are being released because energy is now being released.

The suggestions he has written down are also taking effect. Your intimate life and his biological periods will also improve now, but he must continue what he has been doing in connection with your parents. A portion of him is quite deliberately using that situation—that is, as a catharsis, so the honest emotional attitude must be maintained.

His classes will continue well, and within six months they will be completely filled, which will substantially aid your regular income. Good sales on the ESP book will materialize. Within a two-year period definite substantial gains, well above expenses, will be seen.

He will be freer now to continue and complete his dream book, without feeling coerced. That is he will be spontaneously inspired, I believe, to continue it.

Tell Ruburt to answer our friend’s letter concerning his wife, and we shall have some material shortly.