“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The whole personality knows quite well that the spirit survives and that the personality is capable of communicating with such spirits. To the overly conscientious self however this is not Catholic nor legitimate. At the same time the whole personality is deeply committed and has always been, to such a psychic examination of existence. Even the overly conscientious self is engrossed despite itself.

It wants to know, and it resents the fact that it has been so left in the dark. It is the authoritative part of Ruburt that often takes charge even in psychic matters, and highly relevant. It has been reached. The fact that he has worked without reprisal on his dream book shows this.

At night the two portions have been squabbling, in an attempt to make their peace, hence his discomfort. (In sleeping.) His performance last evening showed however a greater participation of the overly conscientious self in the psychic work, showing itself as authority and confidence. It is not of itself limiting in our work by any means, but there has been constant and deep misunderstanding that came to a head last winter, was somewhat resolved, but still continued. As a result Ruburt very seldom relaxed physically, and this has been largely the cause of his symptoms. The muscles fought each other.