“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It is only when a schism develops that the overly conscientious self becomes quite unreasoning in its demands and expectations. The spontaneous self then becomes defiant, and at times purposely needles the portion of the personality it believes would hold it back.

This material coming out through the sessions frightened the whole personality, and there has been some uproar, which is quite understandable. The problem is somewhat one of definition and understanding.

The church at that point united the personality however, both parts of the personality agreeing on the definition of good. The spontaneous self was the first to break away, and forcibly. It was at the time strong and powerful enough to have its way, and it did not have experience enough behind it. Now a whole new uniting principle has been realized by the spontaneous self, but little attempt was made to enlarge the definitions of good on the part of the overly conscientious self.

Some of the very attitudes considered good by the spontaneous self were diametrically opposed to the ideas of good held by the overly conscientious self. Writing had always united the personality. The direction of the writing changed, and this further seemed to threaten basic held inner beliefs of the overly conscientious self.

The overly conscientious self is afraid of emotion and display, and hence quite terrified of any ideas of communicating with survival personalities. The word God embarrasses it beyond measure, simply because the word no longer means what the overly conscientious self was taught to believe what it meant. It was not the Catholic God. It fears the taking of false gods, you see.

The whole personality knows quite well that the spirit survives and that the personality is capable of communicating with such spirits. To the overly conscientious self however this is not Catholic nor legitimate. At the same time the whole personality is deeply committed and has always been, to such a psychic examination of existence. Even the overly conscientious self is engrossed despite itself.

Aspects from the past were grossly exaggerated, and any normal sensitivity highly intensified by one portion of the personality or the other. Little surprise that he became relatively immobile. The supra-conscious self tried, but the overly conscientious self deepened a preliminary distrust for me, and would not allow me to speak out clearly.

The spontaneous self has seen itself in female terms. When Ruburt imagines that he does not like women therefore, this is the reason. I believe the personality is now coming to terms with itself. Spontaneously the personality always felt at one with All That Is. While he was in the church the overly conscientious self agreed with the terms. Later it became more and more confused.