“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The overconscientious self is also extremely powerful, driven by remarkable amounts of energy. When both portions of the personality are in agreement, then Ruburt’s personality is literally overwhelming, filled with vitality and unbeatable.

The energy of the overly conscientious self is as strong as that of the spontaneous self, hence the impasse that had been reached. He can only go full steam ahead when the whole personality is convinced of his course. For the personality knows full well the tremendous force of its own energy potential, and it would be literally disastrous for one portion to go ahead at the expense of the other. Therefore, regardless of present consequences, one portion has been kept down in order to avoid any serious, that is disastrous, cleavage.

The old neighborhood has enclosed him, and he must now truly escape its limitations while using the psychic potential of his experience as an integrating power. (Pace slower yet.) It is also responsible you see for the remarkable potential that he has. He does not feel free to use his full energy until all portions of the personality are convinced of the goodness of his purpose. (Long pause.)

Both portions however have great capacities for survival, and are each strong, so that the personality has indeed survived. There is a need for the spontaneous self to understand the purposes of the conscientious self also.

Ruburt has wanted you to rub him for the sake of physical contact and reassurance, this being more than acceptable to both portions. He was made to feel unworthy and unwanted by his mother, and it was the spontaneous self who took the brunt of this. He feels therefore rejected by any family group.