“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

If the possibility of success had never emerged the problem would never have emerged. It was unfortunately a cue point, and itself the time bomb of which Ruburt spoke. (Before the session tonight.)

The Crowders representing money, you see, appall him. He expects the wrath of God to fall upon them at any time. He hates them because he considers them evil because they are wealthy. The old car (our Ford) is a badge of virtue to Ruburt since it is old and decrepit. It is a sign of safety.

He has no use for women, and women are not supposed to succeed. I am legitimate. His needs and personality were the reason, however, that he could communicate with me. He would never have communicated with, say, any female counterpart of me. I have literally held his personality together for some time, in relative balance. He has never been mentally unbalanced, and he has avoided this and any deep emotional difficulty. The physical illness, however, has taken their place. All in all, a much safer arrangement.

His mother’s letter (received last week, and containing an old picture of her), followed by the weekend visit (with the Crowders and my parents), was the trigger point this time. He is still at the point where he must be saint or devil. He has had difficulties on Fridays because he eats meat on Fridays, and difficulties Sunday because he does not go to church.

Now. At times the personality has reconciled these elements and served to express them both. The High-Low book of poetry as contrasted to perhaps the idiot poems will explain what I mean.

You are extremely important in all of this, and you can do much to make Ruburt understand. (Jane paused. She shifted her position her eyes closed. Eventually she ended up lying on her back full length on the couch, where she had been sitting throughout the session. She continued to speak with her eyes closed. Her pace was slower. As far as I could recall, this was the first time she had permitted herself to lie flat during a session while in trance.) Because of the early training, you have somewhat assumed a position like those of the priests, and your word becomes extremely important, and almost like a law. Hence his passivity in many instances, and his avoidance of sex.

You can use this to advantage however, as you explain the situation to him, for your words have almost magical import at this time. (Pause.)

(“I think this is the first time I’ve seen Jane lay down during a session.”)

If you have any questions, now is a good time to ask them. Or we will end.

This is connected with Ruburt, of course, and you feel your purpose is bent from its main direction, in that you are not painting full time.