“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, good evening.

Now, to the other portion of the personality however, success was failure. This part of the personality remained relatively quiet until the other portion began to achieve its ends. This portion considered itself not only unworthy but evil. It (The “sinful self” May 10, 1982) is basically an overgrown and almost cancerous super-conscience that applied brakes in the past to some extent, and now has largely taken over.

When you did not expect success, really, then you did not threaten him. Now you expect success, and he feels even beforehand an added threat. Then he will have to suffer for you both, he feels.

(“How come this material is allowed to come through now?”)

Now. Ruburt’s early mystic life was also bound up with priests who were males, with whom one could not have any sexual relationship. He is now bound up with you in these endeavors. While he is so confused, then sexual relationship with you also becomes evil. He also felt compelled to follow the advice of the priests whether or not he agreed with it. This led to his passivity as far as you were concerned. If you were jealous of his success, he should not have it, and it must be plucked out.

The material is coming through simply because he is desperate. Both portions of the personality are frightened. One portion fears success is coming regardless of all its attempts to hold it back. The other fears that it is being restrained despite all efforts to escape. The body is the warring point, and it is itself now fatigued.

Now. At times the personality has reconciled these elements and served to express them both. The High-Low book of poetry as contrasted to perhaps the idiot poems will explain what I mean.

Now that we have reached the true difficulty beneath all else, there should be a good improvement. Steady application will be needed however, and your part as educator is highly important. Do you have questions?

(“It is more willing to see now?”)

It is now to some extent. (Pause.) It gave some consent to me in the beginning, but would go no further.

(Pause.) It should come through more clearly now.

Both. Particularly on his own. The Father Ryan influence—and he also had back trouble. Father Doren was seen as a spontaneous but evil man. Father Ryan was seen as rigid and uncompromising, but good. Father Ryan gave Ruburt his first typewriter, and desk, and bed. Now do you see those connections?

If you have any questions, now is a good time to ask them. Or we will end.