“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(July 14, 1971: When sessions resume, check with Seth about what Jane might have blocked in this session—as well as what she revealed. My part, principally— see pendulum of this date. This session appears to be basic, but perhaps parts pertaining to me were blocked, to spare my feelings?

There is one part of the self, confident, assured of its abilities, and somewhat demanding, rather powerful. It has to this point driven the personality onward despite all obstacles. It never admitted the possibility of failure, but only worked toward success.

Now, to the other portion of the personality however, success was failure. This part of the personality remained relatively quiet until the other portion began to achieve its ends. This portion considered itself not only unworthy but evil. It (The “sinful self” May 10, 1982) is basically an overgrown and almost cancerous super-conscience that applied brakes in the past to some extent, and now has largely taken over.

Running is symbolic. He could run, his mother could not. She was evil. But if he is successful, then he believes he will be successful when he does not deserve it. Therefore evil also, and so he shall not run; running being symbolic of spontaneity. If he gives himself emotional and psychic freedom, then to compensate he will deny himself physical freedom. I have been a safeguard, for I was between him and complete spontaneity, you see.

The psychic classes have been of help for this reason. The overconscientious portion always trusted the spontaneous self as far as poetry was concerned, but distrusted spontaneity otherwise.

The preaching element was always strong. The poetry went against the church, but here the overconscientious self was able to realize the church’s limitations and went along.

With an understanding of this material, yes. And poetry should also be written. I believe the session itself should bring him some considerable relief, but it will not last unless the points given are hammered in.

It is now to some extent. (Pause.) It gave some consent to me in the beginning, but would go no further.

It may according to circumstances, but it will not always.

Both. Particularly on his own. The Father Ryan influence—and he also had back trouble. Father Doren was seen as a spontaneous but evil man. Father Ryan was seen as rigid and uncompromising, but good. Father Ryan gave Ruburt his first typewriter, and desk, and bed. Now do you see those connections?