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(Previously Jane had spoken the one word “four” without elaboration, even when I asked her to explain. She now repeated it again, still without explanation, and later told me that she was aware of resistance concerning the word. Next she said “1961”, and “Florida.”

(We have lived in Elmira since 1960, and were in Florida before this, so the discrepancy is apparent. I did not correct it, for it seemed we were getting to some material that was emotionally strong for Jane in recall. By now I had begun to tentatively mention the symptoms, and to ask Jane what she could say about their origin. It was almost as though she had been waiting for these questions; she quickly spoke the word Florida, and after this I had no doubt that she was at least fairly well hypnotized.

(The first was that her troubles began in Florida; that it was her fault we left Sayre to join her father in Florida, and that I had not wanted to leave my parents. [I had cried in the car as we drove out of Sayre on the way south, but had, I thought, regarded this as natural enough at the time.] Jane told me that it was her fault we had chased around the country, that her spontaneity had done nothing but get us into trouble. Jane described how she had become very frightened in Florida over the job situation, and that I had been forced to get a job anyhow even though I had told her most emphatically that I didn’t intend to do this. [When we went to Florida it had been agreed upon that she would hold a job while I tried out some painting ideas. Her father was to help us out financially also, but did not do so.]

(Two additional points now recalled: When she began talking about Florida, Jane told me “I got scared in Florida”; she was also sure I would leave her when the job situation got so bad and things didn’t work out as we’d hoped they would. [I remember her telling me this in Marathon, when I returned to the trailer after driving out to get a job painting signs.]

(The second point grew out of the above: Jane told me, crying, that if she got sick I’d feel sorry for her and wouldn’t leave her. During the period of reassurance that followed these revelations, I stressed to her that at no time since our marriage have I thought of leaving her, in Florida or anywhere else.