“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now. There are some further points, unrecognized items that we have not touched upon. They are fairly important and play their part in Ruburt’s attitudes. I am pointing out patterns, now, that he has not recognized.

He felt, as a child now, that he had no rights. Nothing was his by rights. Anything could be taken from him at any time. While he lived in one house, still the home itself was always in jeopardy. His mother frequently told him that she would keep him only if he was good, that only Marie’s good graces kept the child from going to an asylum. The mother’s affections were not the child’s by right, but dependent upon how well the child cared or performed.

Now part of this was quite unrealistic, based on old ideas of his, part of it from the interaction of your natures. Our sessions are extremely legitimate, from what you would call a psychic viewpoint—you are reaching dimensions very seldom reached. They also served psychological purposes of course.

On one level then the sessions were an attempt to retain your love and give him a right to it. Hence his later feelings that you loved him only for the sessions carried a certain charge. Now this is one of the most important sessions you have been given on your own affairs. I suggest a break. He would quite literally do anything to retain your love—hence his feelings sometimes that you sent him out on this psychic pilgrimage. This feeling however, having its roots in “lack of rights” and his alliance with you, also provides him with the unity upon which his life is based: the poetry, the psychic work, and yourself. A trio, you see.

Now take your break.

Now let us get through what we can before the two of you get involved in a discussion.

Now you were drawn to him because you sensed precisely that deep love of his, and needed it to add to your own vitality and substance. If you were ever tempted, particularly in earlier times, to isolate yourself to an unhealthy degree, Ruburt was precisely your insurance. You counted on him to call you back, to insist. You counted on that remedy. He was also your own insurance against being swallowed by your own parents, and he saved you from that possibility, which was present.

Now this early summer he improved, and to a large degree, for several reasons. His defiance was finally aroused, a sense of personal worth rushed to the surface, a sense of independence, the feeling “Well if you wanted to leave him go ahead,” all of which released some pressure. Besides this during your vacation you spent a lot of time and attention on him.

Now are you ready for more?

For now, I recommend a definite certain amount of time on a regular basis. I cannot recommend this too strongly. Later you will not need the time, per se. Communication will flow freely, but now you need it.

The period difficulty is connected here, and is a follow-through, as I explained earlier in other sessions. These are the two most important elements necessary now, and the steady but light use of the suggestions.

Now if you want results follow the suggestions. You may end the session, ask questions, or if you prefer list any questions you have between the session and the next, to give you time to think.