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Policy however shadowed everything he did, for he carried it into every activity. Whenever he thought anything differently than the opinions you voiced, he felt inward and refused to express himself regardless of the issue involved—its triviality or its importance.

The symptoms also served to punish you for making him go to such extremes, because physically they obviously hampered the expression of that love. He is possessive and jealous, and gave you his entire loyalty. He was afraid you would flee as your father fled. He would not (in quotes) “humiliate himself” to his way of thinking by crying after you, hammering at your door. He transferred the entire dilemma to the physical realm.

Ruburt hoped they would bring the two of you closer together after your illness. Instead he feared that they drove you farther apart, in that he feared you would use them to spend time away from him rather than with him, and in that he did not feel able to express his own ambiguous feelings—the ideas of performance entering in here.

Several such freely entered encounters will show him practically the difference between your meaning and his interpretation. You are not to watch yourself, in other words. You should both take some time each day to freely discuss whatever personal issues are involved, to express your selves personally to each other on whatever issues you want.